Diazepam
Diazepam, first marketed as Valium by Hoffmann-La Roche, is a benzodiazepine derivative drug. It possesses anxiolytic, anticonvulsant, sedative, skeletal muscle relaxant and amnestic properties. It is commonly used for treating anxiety, insomnia, seizures, alcohol withdrawal, and muscle spasms.
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I asked my mother to go to the pharmacy and get something that would calm me down and make me sleep at night. I’ve been suffering from Insomnia for as long as I can remember, but no one ever took me seriously. Now I’m over eighteen, and I don’t really need anyone’s permission to take what I want need. Out of respect, and maybe in order to avoid arguing with her as well, I asked my mother to go to the pharmacy, maybe have a talk with the doctor who’s usually there, and get me something. I’m not sure she realizes what she brought home, but she got me the a derivative of Valium. Go mom!
So there I am, filled with hope and happiness, completely confident I would have a calm and relaxing night, and that I’d be able to wake up early in the morning. Even though the pills were only five milligrams each, they’re supposed to be a very strong drug, and so I only took one, right after dinner. At night… nothing. The stupid Diazepam did nothing.
I thought it was probably because I was trying too hard to fall asleep. So I stretched my arm and grabbed my iPod. Music, Playlist, Relaxing Sounds of Nature. Birds singing, the ocean waves, wind on trees, very calm and relaxing.
Two thirty in the morning. Not sleeping yet, but almost. A while later I must have fallen asleep, I don’t remember. What I do remember is waking up at six in the morning and not being able to fall asleep until 9. Then I thought, maybe it just takes some time to work, I mean, maybe I have to take it for a few days until it actually works. It says on the box that it can be quite addictive, but I probably have to take more.
So I did the exact same thing the next day, and the same thing happend. I was able to fall asleep early however – because at this stage, two in the morning is early – the problem was I couldn’t seem to stay asleep for long. And I still can’t.
I don’t want to get addicted to Diazepam. I watch these shows on TV on how normal people start needing these kinds of pills to go through their lives and I don’t want that. But I want to be able to sleep and to wake up feeling rested and like I actually slept. By the reactions from most people around me to this, I get the feeling they don’t actually understand how despairing it can get.
Today I had a tiring day. I went out with some friends, we watched a terror movie, walked around the mall…
So I’ll try and take two or three Diazepams today, to see if the fact that I’m tired and the the fact that the drug is so supposedly good, will get me a restful, continuous night of sleep.
Night night, I hope.
I believe diazepam is kinda strong… Probably your going to college is causing you a little stress, or probably you’re sleeping during the day, which is what may keep me from sleeping…
Just passing through…
Cheers!
Try to avoid thoughts like “Why am I not sleeping; Am I sleeping yet?; When do I get sleepy”. You probably heard this advice, but it’s all I can give you since your problems are different (and worse) than mines o:
E lembra-te que mesmo que não durmas, o facto de estares na cama a descansar já ajuda à cabeça, claro que sem dormir de nada serve, mas associado às poucas horas de sono já melhora um pouco.
Mas entendo o teu desespero, o pior é quando se adormece e volta-se a acordar passado duas horas, para voltar a adormecer é outro castigo e quando finalmente começamos a sonhar…puf acorda-se outra vez.
Se o DIazepam não funcionar, não o uses mais. Conheço uma pessoa que começou a tomar comprimidos fortes e aditivos como esse desde pequena, o pior é que tinha de fazer intervalos e aí piorava bastante. Essa pessoa é bastante velha e continua a tomar os comprimidos aditivos, quando os pára de tomar, problemas surgem de todo o lado. É triste ver casos assim e se tens agora oportunidade de evitares isso, then do it xP
@ G…
Yeah, that’s probably it (although I’m pretty excited about it too). And yeah, I understand that, but it’s really difficult not going to sleep after 24 hours or more of being awake…
Thank you for your comment
@ Griffin_Bandida
Eu sei, mas é complicado não pensar nessas coisas. Sim, quando se acorda é o pior. Só apetece é chorar às vezes T.T
Drug addicts D: ew
Normalmente esses comprimidos têm de ser tomados à hora de jantar, como fizeste, para qd te fores deitar sentires sono. A minha mãe toma metade de um Diazepam de 10mg (penso que seja assim).
Se te sentes stressada e não consegues descansar, fizeste bem em procurar um calmante que te ajude a relaxar e a descansar, porque se não tiveres as horinhas necessárias de sono, poderás vier a ter outros problemas.
Acima de tudo, tenta continuar a não abusar muito, porque como disseste, são comprimidos fortes e criam vício.
Quando estou mais nervosa tomo “Valdispert”, são muito fraquinhos, ajudam-te a dormir sem acordares com uma grande moca e não te deixam viciada. Devias experimentar…aconselhada pelo farmaceutico ou médico, claro, pq quem sou eu para estar aconselhar comprimidos.
Btw, bela tarde
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Ana, eu também não tenho dormido nada…fico noites inteiras acordada a ver os programas todos que dão no People&Arts e no Zone Reality…por isso, não te sintas sozinha e frustrada por não conseguires dormir. Penso que, tal como já disseram aqui, está tudo relacionado com a mudança de vida que estamos prestes a enfrentar.
If you need to talk, don’t hesitate.
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